i held her in my arms

• bir violent femmes parçası.
  
  i'm gnawing on the knowledge
  that i have been burnt
  and i'm learning things that i
  should've already learnt
  everyone i ever knew
  was so kind and coy
  i was with a girl
  but it felt like i was with a boy
  i can't even remember
  if we were lovers
  or if i just wanted to
  but i held her in my arms
  i held her in my arms
  i held her in my arms
  but it wasn't you
  i will not kill
  the one thing that i love
  in this world of wreckage
  i look above
  help me lord
  help me understand
  what it means to be a boy
  what it means to be a man