deep in your subconscious

• atrocity - hallucinations albümünden bir şarkı.
  
  lying there in a small crib
  naked and innocent
  just loosing my virginity
  only four years old
  a menacing man above me
  he's my own father!
  my legs and arms are limp
  crushed my confusion
  lascivious eyes stare at me
  i've never seen before
  musty smell in the air
  diffusing body odor
  feeling like a pig ravished and abused
  praying for my god
  the old man with the old white beard
  a hurting abdomen, a grieved soul
  tears are running from ym eyes
  i don't know what's going on
  cries, screams of despair
  father slaps in my face
  "shut up little cunt"
  feeling like a pig
  ravished and abused
  prayimg for my god
  the old man with the long white beard
  satisfaction - father is groaning
  humiliation - treated like a shitheap
  observation - my brain is empty
  anxiety - father, never do it again!
  atrocity - fear in my eyes
  inbreeding - my body is deseased
  shame - mother won't be told
  some human beings are repulsive animals
  after a while - the pain is over
  disgusting - full of serious mucus
  genitals - blood runs from my legs
  an ugly smile - my father leaves the room
  misery - i'm feeling sick
  depression - i clasp teddy in my arms
  loneliness - nobody who helps
  some human beings are repulsive animals
  first you tried to repress
  then you established
  the nightmare will ever be
  deep in your subconscious