hurt

• i hurt myself today
  to see if i still feel
  i focus on the pain
  the only thing that's real
  the needle tears a hole
  the old familiar sting
  try to kill it all away
  but i remember everything
  what have i become?
  my sweetest friend
  everyone i know
  goes away in the end
  you could have it all
  my empire of dirt
  i will let you down
  i will make you hurt
  i wear my crown of shit
  upon my liar's chair
  full of broken thoughts
  i cannot repair
  beneath the stain of time
  the feeling disappears
  you are someone else
  i am still right here
  what have i become my sweetest friend
  everyone i know
  goes away in the end
  you could have it all
  my empire or dirt
  i will let you down
  i will make you hurt
  if i could start again
  a million miles away
  i would keep myself
  i would find a way